This is the first post of 2015. It’s been one and a half year since I started writing this blog. It’s been a grateful journey. In 2013, I met a lady in Vipassana center. I am still in touch with her and she is a good friend of mine. She knew numerology and read my future using my birth date and name. She had told me that 2014 will be the golden year of my life. When 2014 came, I started thinking what is the best that gonna happen. The journey of 2014 started and now when it has ended I can conclude that it’s the best year of my life till now as I evolved to a grateful life.
I was placed in a multinational company and I left for Hyderabad in Feb, 2014 for my training. During the training period, I met lot of people from the different parts of the country like Maharashtra, Rajasthan, Madhya Pradesh, Andhra Pradesh. I made few close friends with whom I am still in touch. I had started with my meditation in Sept 2013 and I continued while I was in Hyderabad for training. My training provided a practical ground for me where I could apply meditation in the real world. It helped me to grow in life hence I was evolving- this is what evolution is.
Recently, my Public Administration teacher was giving me a lecture or what I should say that he was scolding me for some comment I made out of knee jerk reaction. While scolding me he said that he believes in EVOLUTION. With every moment of life one evolves and I must also focus on evolving myself. To him I was a fundamentalist coz of the line I said to which he jumped to conclusion. When he was giving me a lecture on evolution, inside I was smiling coz recently I had gone through a major evolution and I live this concept.
People lacks patience specially when it comes to judgements. They take one line from your mouth, apply their own understanding to it and draw judgments against you. A whole new set of image is created in their mind regarding you. In later half of 2014, I have been a victim of this judgement making thing. Coz of this I have lost some friends, one among them was a close friend and nearly lost my best friend. I respect those including my best friend who stood up like a real friend and asked me for clarifications coz the rest just cut the ribbon and inaugurated a new image of mine in their mind which will stay till they don’t judge me on new things. This is the subtle human behavior which mostly goes unnoticed.
We all are our best judge. The pre-condition is that one must be well aware of his conscience(which requires a practice) and be honest to it. We humans are gifted with 2 qualities- 1. Consciousness and 2. Conscience.
Our conscious gives us the ability to be aware of our self and when we are aware of our CONSCIENCE we lead a life which in real sense is the life of a human. Our conscience is like a moral guide, which keeps a check on our evolution. It continuously tells us whether we are evolving or degrading. Some calls it inner voice.
Once you start listening to your conscience, you become your own critic. Remember one thing, your conscience will never give you an EGO MASSAGE. To be able to listen to your conscience you must have a lower level of ego otherwise you will simply be suppressing it’s voice and will be your worst enemy.
In 2014, I have gone through lot of realizations and listening to my conscience is one among them. When you follow the laws of universe/nature which in ancient India is termed as Dharma, then you see that you get instant rewards. The major reward is happiness which brings peace and not euphoria that is temporary. Once you have experienced this thing you become more aware of yourself. Like it is said, wisdom is the experiential knowledge, it’s the realization of the belief you held.
Recently, I talked to a friend. He pointed out to me that I am using the word ‘I’, ‘Me’ a lot and that makes me sound very egoistic. No doubt I use a lot of ‘I’ and ‘Me’ when we have debates and most of the time I am telling him that he don’t know much and I know more than him on a particular topic and this sets him off. But I know that nowhere in this I have a rise in ego. Some might smirk at it so let me tell how sometimes words defy ego.
Speaking truth is not hate speech, in the same way when someone says that I am more good in this area than you, that doesn’t mean that person is being egoistic. Till it is the genuine belief of the person and his conscience do not detect a trace of ego then there is no harm in saying ‘I am the best for the job’.
There is a thin line between confidence and over-confidence. Next time you are in a dilemma simply ask your conscience and be honest and brave enough in admitting the instant ego less reply. Once you learn to use your conscience as a moral guide or as a compass then you will never lose direction. Life becomes more simple as you won’t suffer from foul manipulations of your ego-ridden mind which itself can be manipulated by outside forces. If you go against your conscience favoring your ego, you will suffer from conscience guilt which will eat up your mental peace- the worst thing that can happen to you.
We all evolve at our own pace. My funda is that till my conscience is clear I go ahead creating a future with the help of my consciousness as this whole universe(Brahmana) is nothing but a conscious morphogenetic field.